What are you thinking?

I have to study so much more numbers in spanish

 

I'm stressed over almost everything a person can be stressed about. Finances (big time), time, relationship (big time), work, I haven't been eating, sleeping or drinking enough...

It'd be one thing if I had time OR money but I don't have either. I'm tired of living like a peasant only for things to get worse. I literally can't even afford food for probably most of November... I'm starting a new job on Monday. Luckily I quit my old draining one with hours that were lowering and a salty boss, but new jobs are nerve wracking and I hope I still have my scrubs around for it so I don't have to buy any. I took my friend to celebrate her birthday but that hurt financially more than I want to admit. I'm supposed to get married this month and my parents are sending us honeymoon money, but most of it will probably have to go to bills and crap. My fiance and I are having issues... I had an actual weekend off for the first time in forever and tried to make it fun but homework is calling my name and those relationship issues have been popping up...

Ugh. I'm so tired of life. Yet from the outside maybe my life seems ideal.

 

I'm super hungry and I have to practice for the SAT in two months... sigh...

 

I just want to fast-forward two years just to see where I will end up.

 

I'm dani you should watch 13 going on 30 in case you don't know it yet haha it's about the same kind of thing

 

I'm well on my way back to being conversational in Spanish. I'm going to have to keep practicing after college.

 

Cookie is a surprisingly tiring word to say.

(I'm lip syncing to "Cookie Road" by The Julie Ruin, and the chorus goes "cookie cookie yah, cookie yah, cookie yah yah" three times).

 

Thank you! :icon_bigg

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I should clean my room, but I'm too tired, I think I'm doing this tomorrow ^^

 

I have tons of homework to do and I'm also sick, all around just stressed out :bang:

 

Another New England Patriots victory!

 

You're a bull :eek:

 

I should have gone to the gym today but I've been feeling...afraid? Too afraid to go. I used to go all the time but my new gym..it's different. It's really small and I feel like I'm in the way of other people there? Which is crazy..because I'm just on the treadmill running. Like it bothers me so much I am thinking about paying for a gym membership at work just so I can work out there instead because it's way bigger and has way more space and I'd feel less claustrophobic. And because I haven't been going to the gym I can really feel myself getting paranoid and like, freaking out over my weight. I weighed myself today and yesterday and I'm actually down a pound from where I normally am but I'm afraid to eat because I haven't gone to the gym. It's a cycle. Like ugh..I haven't felt this way, this badly, since high school and I fucking hate that I still feel this way sometimes. It's a never ending struggle..

 

Make sure to eat well tho just not too much unhealty things and keep hydrating yourself. I usually dance like crazy at home on my favorite music. That's how I stay in shape.

 

Sadly I have no choice but to write it in Chicago. Teacher's word is law in the classroom.

 

I would if I could. Well, maybe some day...who knows?



Eh, it's on my bucket list now, because why not? :lol:

What is my life? :/ (No offense to anyone, I'm just having a bit of an identity crisis right now that's all. ).

 

My new room mate in my dorm will officially be one of the Japanese exchange students, he also likes the same games I like so i'm super happy about it.