What are you thinking?

Yeah, cause I'm thinking off doing offline shopping during the last few weeks of school.

 

Omg, we were doing a team race in our swimming class and the guys said I was fast

I have a shitty cardio, so even if I could do more physically, my heart can't follow. Still, it made me really happy to get that comment :3 (Plus, we won!)

 

I'm officially a server at a popular restaurant here! Time for the tips to roll on in.

 

The word of the day is "dick."

I've called people "dicks" at least 20 times already. It's a good day.

 

Today is such a nice day. Perfect weather, no school. Feels like summer.

 

Building IKEA furniture reminds me of how much I don't like IKEA furniture but I need a table and didn't like what I was seeing around me... The screws are going in only half-way even when I use a drill for it. My hands feel really raw over fighting with the screws with a screwdriver so I'm taking a break.

Also shared something on facebook quoting one of the many times my mum has said something transphobic to me, I hope she reads it to realize why what she's saying is wrong. Unless of course, she's just in a constant state of denial over me being trans and she'll just ignore it or act like she's a victim in this.

 

I fucking LOVE Ikea. Need to get some new office stuff

 

Snow days are awesome, but only when I actually know that it is a snow day, so that I don't drive to school for no reason...

I received an e-mail from my course coordinator that my section was cancelled. I didn't think about checking my e-mails for snow days. The website didn't say classes were cancelled, so I assumed they were still going on, regardless of the snow.

Note to self... check e-mails too :/

 

I hate enthusiasm. Just because it's so hard to get right, you know? If I put too much emphasis on it then it then it comes out sounding sarcastic, but if I put too little on it then it makes it sound like I don't care. This is why I hate interviews.

I tend to have a habit talking in a monotonous voice- and sometimes I end up talking in the opposite, making it sound too dramatic. I'm quite self-concious of my voice, I actually find it easier conveying tone through singing, rather than talking. Is that weird? I don't even...

 

You guys make me want to have a furby now.

I had one when I was a kid, but it didn't work D: My sister's furby worked, though. Haha, good times.

 

So that thing I shared on facebook? My mum pretty much said this:

"You were a girly girl when you were younger, trans people know they are different from a young age so therefore you are not trans, there is something wrong with you by wanting to look like a man. Remember, you brought this to facebook" What does that even mean anyways? I wanted to come out on facebook in the first place so it's a good first step for me? Why does she always want to argue...

I pretty much wrote out a very long post explaining my point and telling her that some people don't even know they are trans until a later age. It's like she's invalidating what I feel right now, why must she always do that? I suggested that she talk to my gender therapist and maybe we can have a healthy discussion about it(without arguing).

 

I can't wear my short shorts to school tomorrow. Ugh, guess I'll have to wear my basketball shorts tomorrow. You know what? I'm gonna come out to one of my friends.

 

The Foster's just keeps getting better and better...

 

Today felt so negative.

Had a lot of bad news yesterday. And today it's a snow day here. All day I've had the feeling of eminent doom.

Took a shower, watching the Grammys. I feel better.

 

So. The co-habiting male has finally moved out! My home is officially mine again! Only took 5 months......

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Lmao. Feel free to send some my way

 

My grandma had a stroke and a heart attack. They did a heart cath, but it there was nothing there at all. They said that her heart looked really healthy. So, they are not sure what is really going on.

 

My mom was like this when I first came out. She came around eventually though. So that may be the case with your mom. Honestly, I was the same way. I didn't know I was trans until I was about 18, didn't even really feel weird until puberty. I was kinda a girly kid (even though I'm anything but now).

But I think you did the right thing. I think once she's able to talk to the therapist she'll at least get to talk about things rationally. Thing is, a lot of parents do go into panic mode when their kids first come out (and I suppose that's even the case months/years later). I mean, their whole world is being turned around. Granted, your mom will never really know you as well as you know yourself. But she's panicking because her perception of you is wrong. And I think that's hard for people to deal with in general, when things aren't as they assume or plan. So give her some credit in that regard. It doesn't excuse hurtful words or actions but it can be hard for a lot of people to figure out a family member's transition with a clear head.

 

I really don't want to think about what will happen if I have to move away on my own in September.

 

Totally forgot about the Fosters again. I'm ready for the Grammys and the Gravity Falls series finale.