What are you thinking?

Valentine's day here, and I am in a computer rental shop and playing LoL... Alongside with this gamers that has no date this day I dont feel lonely anymore :lol:

 

Lol knowing a bunch of people on this site are single makes me feel much better!

 

#foreveraloneclub

 

Did you do it? If so how did it go. Hopefully well! (*hug*)

 

Argh. Not happy. A one hour shopping trip that took three flipping hours!

 

I'll do my homework tomorrow. I have no school on Monday.

 

Drank about half a bottle of gin. Still conscious. Interesting.

 

Gin is disgusting by itself! :lol:

 

I need to lost some weight.

 

Same.

 

No I didn't I tried I really did I was about to say the words but then I started to feel like I was going to cry and I froze, I am such a coward :tears::bang:

 

Heard in my house: 2 feet does not make that much difference in bed

 

It's -5 Fahrenheit / -20 C outside right now. Really? This isn't Antarctica.

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Not if it's very herbal.

 

Deadpool is prettttttyyyyyy good.

 

Having a V day here. Today:
Woke up at 9, ate breakfast
Went to a library
Skimmed through a couple books, nothing looks interesting.
Went home.
Wasn't hungry until 5
Ate lunch
Brushing my teeth right now

No one calls me or texts me.
Lovely.
I'm always the one who texts first. But I don't even like texting. Forever alone.

 

The letter is on the table I hope she notices it, if not im going to give it to her

 

So after five years of bottling up my feelings and struggles, and not being open with others about how I've really felt when it comes to a lot of what I'm dealing with, I've finally decided to take a positive step in my mental health journey and am going to be going to get a depression screening soon. Whenever all of these feelings started a few years ago, I just thought it was the usual ups and downs that life brings. I had deaths in family at the time and was struggling heavily with my sexuality, and I figured this would pass as I grew older. Now I'm 19, but these feelings have still been there, waiting for times when I'm vulnerable to creep back into the forefront. This year since I've been at college, the feelings of anxiety, irritability, emptiness, fatigue, and terrible sleeping patterns have been worse than previous years, and after finding resources at my University I figured that the best next step for me would to be to address this head-on, as bottling up feelings hasn't worked for me so far. There's always been the stigma in the back of my mind as well about men seeking help with their mental health that also made me so hesitant, but after being comforted by my support groups indirectly by how I've seen them support others, I've decided to go forward. I'm just happy to have such a wonderful support system and I'm ready to face this and take positive steps to better my mental health.

 

Spending V-Day listening to David Bowie, writing a bittersweet love poem inspired by my crush...

Undateable. [Extra points to anyone who gets the reference.]

 

My finals are in four days and I'm losing it.
There's a lot to study.
A lot.
Oh wow now I've got myself a headache.
Perfect.