I have this feeling that even though I want to be seen as female, that I wish I had been born a girl, that I have this growing desire to transition, I just can't say to myself that I feel I'm female. I don't get how I can feel something like that. And because I've always been somebody that is logical and rationnal, I have a hard time understanding something that can only be felt. I also have the feeling of being "not trans enough", which just adds to my confusion and self-restrain. I know what I want. Well, I think I do. But I'm just full of doubts that forces me to justify my every thoughts. Because of these reasons, I get the feeling that I need someone's "seal of approval", even though I'm the only one that can deliver it. And that sucks.
Here you go, you can have mine: On a more serious note, it can take some time to get used to the idea that most of society is wrong about you, and you're right. It might take some time to work through those doubts. You might want to read this and this to get a better understanding of your doubts.
Thanks. These articles were very helpful. I recognized myself a lot in what they wrote. I'll take some time to think about what I just read and talk about it with my therapist at my next session next week.
I totally get what you are saying here. I'm not that different actually, and so you are definitely not alone. It doesn't help that I have a wide set of hobbies I can plunge myself into to distract me from facing this stuff more head-on either. Yes. Yes it is. Thanks for sharing that HappyGirlLucky.