Small Victories

It's a bit more than a small victory, wouldn't you say?

 

You deserve a round of applause! =D

 

I shared my preferred pronouns with my school's GSA sponsor teachers. They're going to share them with the group at our next meeting.

 

My R.A. called me "she..."

I dunno how to express how happy that makes me.

It would feel silly saying thanks over such a small thing!

 

Got an official referral from my new PCP to a gender clinic and I should get a call from them within a week. Might be able to get something in town

 

Guys! I cut my hair! I put a picture up on my profile if you want to check it out!

 

You are correct, self confidence and worth are the biggest victory.

 

Well, I just got back from my first meeting with the gender identity team. For some reason it took me two goddamn years to get there, but it finally felt like I'm getting somewhere.

 

A random victory for me is that I finally dyed my hair a funky color. It was suppose to be blue but turned out a mix of blue and green. Looks cool though.

On the transgender front, my eldest brother called me He the other day.

 

Two years, holy s... That should be fucking illegal, to keep someone waiting for two years...
Congrats, anyways...

 

To be fair, it was not strictly because of administrative reasons. Shit happened, I had to move and then I needed to be investigated for aspergers and ADD and they prioritized that. Not sure why they couldn't just refer me at the same time if I had to wait four months after that point anyways.

 

ive been feeling pretty positive about my pre-op bod today. took some shirtless pictures and everything, it took a lot from me but the knowledge that one day these useless milk sacks will be gone is helping a lot. just over a year. just over a year until i can start hormones and look into surgery. thats not too long, is it?

 

I came out to my school's GSA about my pronouns and preferred name, and it went really well. Everybody gave me encouraging smiles and they were all so sweet. I honestly had built it up in my head that they were going to reject me or call me 'confused', but seeing their reactions has made me feel so much better.

Earlier in the week my history teacher had this irrelevant slightly homophobic / transphobic / sexist rant about how men and women should be a certain way, and if they don't then they're unattractive and freaks. Pretty much my whole class agreed, so I've been feeling kind of down.
GSA has lifted my spirits though and I feel okay about myself again. My best friend attended the meeting too and is actually trying to get my pronouns correct now, so that is also great.

 

i got a whole bunch of feminine tops yesterday. i donate the stuff my son grows out of to a clothing bank and a friend asked me to drop off a bunch for her. i thought it was from her sons but one bag had feminine stuff so i picked through it and got a dozen or so tops, tee shirts etc. even a pair of slacks that fit me.

not a hugh victory but it does expand my wardrobe.

i'll donate the rest for her but i figure taking what fits me is the same as buying from a vintage store but saving the cash.:icon_wink

 

"Darling"

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"DARLING"

*squeals excitedly*

 

Called a gender therapist, and of course I had to go through someone else before. As the woman asked my name, I gave my surname... Then she asked my first name...
I thought 'Fuck it, I refuse to say that name', and said simply 'Michael'.
There was a silence... I thought 'Well, so what? Deal with it'... And then I was told I would receive some letter with an appointment, probably total BS...

Still, I'm proud of that 'Fuck it' moment. Let's have them deal with it, I've been dealing with hiding for too many years, and I'm sick of it : This is me, take or leave it, world...

 

of course, you always look amazing.

 

Last night I went to a concert and I handed a guy behind me water and he said "thanks mate". Extremely menial but it makes me feel so good when terms like mate, man, bro get used towards me.