What are you thinking?

Be really careful with that stuff. It can mess up your heart rhythm, give you chest pains, and make your bp skyrocket. That's what it did to me. Then again, you are going to be a doctor, so you probably know.

Tomorrow will be fun. The bf is coming over for the first time since our testing to make sure he was out of the HIV window. I am nervous, excited, and I am not sure I will sleep much tonight. Haha. Wow, it's really happening...

 

Studying all of those chemicals and you opt for Monster energy drinks? I'm judging. Though I can only judge so much considering the fact that I am all pro-organic/health lifestyle and I had Taco Bell last week.

Listen, I was in a dark place! I was sleep deprived with half a term paper and a long night ahead of me. I was craving junk food and Taco Bell and Mcdonalds are the only ones down the street. Clearly, there is no amount of desperation that would send me to Mcdonalds, so I only had one option. Not to mention, I used to enjoy their chicken quesadilla way back. From the first bite, I tasted nothing but regret, but you know that you have to commit now that you've made your decision. It was just a rough night all together...

 

I'm not sure if this curry is actually good, or if if it's just good because I'm drunk.

Oh well, it tastes good now regardless. :lol:

 

Watching Fagbug.

 

thinking that i wish i could stop thinking... i have been doing way to much of that lately.

 

I should be resting up for exams, but instead I'm watching abridged anime... I am OK with this.

 

-shrugs- I think benefit outweighs risk here. I'm choosing between 1) not having these side effects, yet be tired, incapable of studying, fail, and get left back one year versus 2) possibly having these side effects, yet be awake, capable of studying, possibly passing, and progressing in the program. I would pick the latter option despite the risks haha

I've let my health deteriorate this whole semester. I'm so busy with studying and work that I just don't care about anything else. I've eaten more fast food than I should have, but it's quick and keeps me full ._.

 

Sex

 

Someone's horny

 

I normally don't watch the Home Shopping Network, but I really want to call in... not for these towels they have... but the model presenting the towels.

Ah, fuck... now it's some annoying guy, talking about dash-cams.

Why'd you take away my towel goddess, HSN?!




LOL.

 

I can't be the only one sick of all the stereotypical/non-stereotypical gay guy threads popping up lately...

 

Ain't dey jus' faaaaaaab? *wrist flick*

 

:roflmao:

I actually feel that some gay men love to build an identity or persona that validates them as masculine/men. They'll be like, "I love ESPN, heavy metal, and working on my car; yeah, I am a MAN."

If you derive even an ounce of gender validation from the music you listen to, I feel you have issues :lol:.

 

I should watch those shopping channels more often :lol:


Anyways, I really need to write that essay for my English teacher, it should've been ready two weeks ago:bang:

 

Bangover?

 

I'm such a worthless piece of crap.

 

No you're not.

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Debating tomorrow in school!!!yay!!!^^

My teacher assigned me to argue for "life has no sense" ....i wonder what she wants to tell me with that...

 

Well, after all that bloody paperwork, it's certainly official now. I'm the co-founder of a company. What could possibly go wrong? 9_9

 

*Positive thoughts*...*positive thoughts*.

 

Why in the world would my bf cancel again on me???????? We haven't seen each other in 2 weeks. Obviously, I must be ugly or something. I guess I am with being fat and all. I am useless and worthless and too nice to people, and they know they can take advantage of me. It has happened all my life. And I'm about freaking done. He better not be lying about not having another man or scared to have sex with me. Maybe I should breakup with him and try dating women? I may not be as attracted to them but maybe they will actually tell me the truth.