Awkward. Watching the NBA Finals and the Google commercial for high schoolers came out and I was praying nobody saw the gay couple at prom. Only my sister was watching at the time.
That's me every time I text, lol. Oh man. It was real bad after I texted my date/hook-up. Waited a couple days "oh I don't want to come across as awkward or annoying". We texted...briefly. "what if he hates my stupid face? what if he had a bad time and he's just giving me poker face?" Anxiety's fun, amiright? - That moment when everything's cool and fine and then you hear a woman's voice coming out of your throat. :dry:
Gah! More attracted. Really don't want to be. Cue the anxiety. I hate this and I hate my mind. :help: :icon_sad:
Ok grandma. I love you and everything, but please stop trying to intrude in literally everything I do. I know that my parents are joking about college, I know that I should go on a run, I know that I should stretch afterwards, I know my sister did a great job in the orchestra concert. You don't need to tell me this stuff!
Had my sister take me to the store for some Dramamine. Took one about two hours ago and am finally feeling better. The worst thing about vertigo is the panic. I could deal with the dizziness if it didn't make me think I was dying
You know... Analyzing my past relationships, I kinda get the feeling I'm more gay than I thought. Had therapy today. "You know... I feel real bad about admitting this but I wasn't super physically attracted to my girlfriend." Her body didn't really turn me on. She had nice cleavage but I wasn't into her body- I was into her as a friend, for her mind. It was really a very chaste relationship. I sometimes fantasized about her but not like, all that sexually. It was more like "we're gonna have 2.5 kids and I'll cook for you and maybe we'll kiss." I still really really bad about the fact I wanted to experiement with men when we were together. I never did. But I still felt bad about thinking about it... :\
Could it be that you're on of us? :lol: Don't feel bad. It's not your fault that you don't fully have a hold over what your sexuality is.
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:lol: Haha, maybe. I wasn't very sexually developed then. Didn't even really have a drive until now, if I'm gonna be honest. And I guess if I never had sex with a woman or dated one at least once, it wouldn't be that same level of "oh well, at least ONCE in my life" as it is with guys.
Then follow the instructions . ---------- Post added 6th Jun 2014 at 08:59 AM ---------- I hate conversations without smiley faces; I think the person is being dry with me or don't like talking with me :dry:.
