What Are You Thinking?

I'm looking forward to football tomorrow. I'm not really in the mood for basketball yet (excepting KU games). They're lulling me to sleep.

 

I want this Quebec trip to come sooner.. I'm growing weary of Australian weather and want to experience watching snow fall on Christmas day. I've been picturing it for a while, now, and it seems so serene.

I also learned last night that I am a complete lightweight and I'm surprised I didn't get alcohol poisoning. I'll just stick to tea, juice, and water for now.....

 

Finished my anime! Finally. Now to look for another one...
I have also, finally moved! Kinda... I'm in my cousins house for now, but people have moved into our old one.

 

Hopefully, its a keeper then. I have been stringing together the pieces of my current project for two years now(Wow, that seems really long now that I think about it). The first year I did extensive planning and this second year I've essentially just been sitting on it, because I didn't want to actually start writing seriously until mid-next year because I just don't have the free time at the moment to devote writing consistently.

Though I still get new ideas for it every day, and I feel as though it keeps going deeper and deeper with time. I feel guilty though because I am supposed to be working on a writing submission that is due early next year and I have yet to start truthfully. It's just that when you stumble upon an idea that you really adore, everything else just seems lackluster in comparison.

 

Yeah, I worked on the same series for most of middle and high school. Outlined book after book, must've scrapped it and started over at least a dozen times.

I'm supposed to be working on a couple short pieces myself, since I've got a deadline in March for an anthology. But yeah, haven't even touched it. Honestly haven't written anything since April, at least nothing substantial.

But this idea, yeah. I'm reusing old characters but writing shit I've been dying to get into for years. Love fae and folklore but never done anything with it besides the usual kitchen sink urban fantasy. What I've got's looking to be something like Through the Looking Glass meets Thomas the Bard.

 

I'm a computer person. Why am I doing so much writing? I have at least three in-depth posts planned on my blog, a short story, and the methods of a lab report, all of which either should or need to be done within the next few days.

 

I just found of this film online with subtitles without having to download it! Only saw this once without subs and over time that link was taken down or lost. I'm so excited!!!!!

And totally did not flap my hands like a pre-adolescent upon finding it....

 

That I should be strong even though I feel alone at times.

That I should learn how to be happy and quit thinking too much.

That I should train my mind to think positively.

That I should not depend my happiness to someone else but me.

 

How am I going to meet my Jan. 1 target weight of 110 lbs. when there is a turkey gobbling at every corner?

 

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuughhh how stupid do people have to be to want to remove water fluoridation

uuuugggh they are all homeopaths uuuuuuugghh what a surprise uuuuuuughh

 

Where the hell did this bruise on my arm come from?

 

I can't wait for all the food tomorrow! My mouth is watering just thinking about it!

 

Once again, my recipe for Cabernet-Apricot Cranberry Sauce turned out AWESOME!!!

 

I'm in such a shitty mood lately. One minute I am happy the next minute super depressed. Feels like a rollercoaster.

 

There are just some people who should deny their 'life essence' to others...

 

Happy early Thanksgiving all! ^_^

 

I think I should just not mess with this until I have time to collect my thoughts. One guy that has a thing for me just professed his love for me. And then another guy who I feel (and we haven't talked in a while) messaged me today. I don't know what to do. For once in my life, I need advice.

 

Today has been weird as hell, funny, and horrible, all at the same time. I was only at work for about 3 1/2 hours and all this shit happens:

First off, that dumb cashier that just walked out on us left a mess that I had to clean up. The area around the register was filled with items customers didn't want, so there's that.

Second of all, I got hit on and asked out by some older dude. Yah. What the fuck. That conversation went like this:

Me: *after ringing up his items* "Is that all, sir?"
Him: "Hmmm...nope. A date with a cutie like you would be nice."
Me: ".....Uh. What."
Him: "My gaydar's perfect."
Me: "O....kay?"
Him: "So?"
Me: "Uh, no. I'm, uh...I'm kinda romantically...kinda linked with someone...I think, but...uh-"
Him: "C'mon, man! I can show you a good ti-"
Me: "-And you're too old."
Him: "Aw, man, you didn't have to go the-"
Me: "-insert monetary amount- is your total, sir."
Him: "Playing hard to get, man..."
Me: "No. -insert monetary amount- is your total."

Thirdly, not even a half hour after that, this woman comes in looking for "a short, Black man" because she needed to give him a "friendship cake." What.

Her: *awkwardly walks up to my register*
Her: "...You are not the Black man I'm looking for..."
Me: "..."
Me: "..."
Me: "...Uh. What."
Her: "I'm looking for a short Black man who was here two weeks ago. Are you the only Black man that works here?
Me: "....Yes."
Her: "Aw. Well...*takes something wrapped in aluminum foil from her purse and hands it to me* It's a friendship cake. It has pecans and icing. I promised the short Black man that I'd give it to him. Now, if he's not here, you can have it. Or you can give it back to me."
Me: "Uh....I think I should give this back to you....*hands her back the cake*"
Her: *slowly takes it back "...Okay."
Me:
Her:
Me:
Her: "Okay, bye."
Me: "...Bye...?"


Ugh. Just. Tonight. Can it die already. Ugh.

 

Yup, definitely gray-asexual, if not just plain asexual. Either way I'm somewhere between indifferent and repulsed.