Dating someone, doing everything for them, and then expecting nothing in return without realizing how much I was getting hurt. I know I'm better then that now.
Oh my. I don't know. Probably seeking help. Although I didn't know that was being stupid. Maybe starting drinking again. Or cutting? Or not eating? Although you can't really help a mental illness I guess the most recent stupid this is that I told my friend I like her. I feel like the biggest idiot in the world for that.
Let's see... I smoked something without knowing what it was, and for about an hour I was rolling on the floor and crying, 100% convinced that I was wrong, there was a hell after all, and I'd been trapped in a coma reliving all of my moments of social anxiety during my slow descent. Also I was convinced I was dying of cancer or something. I had drunk sex with a friend and now he's really clingy. And this one time I traveled across the state by myself at 3am on public transit.
I didn't apply to any "good" (high-ranked) college and resorted to the best in-state school, even though I had the academic record to get in almost anywhere. I think one the side fears was having to get a roommate, who would likely be straight, but I think my reluctance was more than just that. One of my good friends made the leap and went to an ivy league school; I always envy her accomplishments.
I'm driving along on a 50 MPH road and a guy in a big pickup truck is going about 25 MPH. I try to pass him, and he speeds up and won't let me back over. Well sure enough, someone comes around the curve and I had to dive for a turn lane on the wrong side of the road to avoid getting hit head-on. He peeled out, and I took off and chased him, honking at him and flipping him off and flashing my brights. Eventually he turned into a Goodwill parking lot, and I rolled down my window and cranked up the song "Thrift Shop" ---------- Post added 23rd Jul 2013 at 08:49 PM ---------- How did you manage to do that?
when i was 16 I had been having a few beers with my step sister ''she year younger'' and I told her I was Gay sounded really supportive and said she wont tell anyone . guess what the bitch told some of her mates who know my mates so next day a whole bunch of people know . I was close to killing her ''figure of speech''. never been so frightened in my life .
When I was 17 I took drugs at school in the middle of a class. STUPIDEST thing I've EVER done. I don't remember the rest of that day, but apparently I did some very...odd and very public stuff in the middle of school in front of everyone. All I remember is getting picked up by my bro in law and before I knew it I passed out on his couch for 5 hours. Some people never let it go, and many years later after I've moved past it I still run into people from high school that bring it up and some of my old friends will still avoid all contact with me. I regret it, but I've moved past it. Not like I take it back, so I own it and make jokes about it to anyone who brings it up
Ah, I should specify. There were other people present, but I brought no one with me. I didn't drive at the time, so I just hopped busses and went. I also didn't inform anyone of my leaving either really, or my arrival. I'm surprised I didn't get picked up by police or creepers, I look like a minor.
