I'm overwhelmed. There are four things that can happen in the near future that are incredibly detrimental to my life and none of them are going to be easy. It's like I was born to fail this life. Idk what to do :/ on top of it my therapy app was moved to next week so I have nobody to talk to about it Y,Y My arm's going to be in stitches at this rate.
It still is an amazing place. If you find that some of your friends who have gotten to know earlier aren't logging in as much anymore, maybe try creating some new friendships. (*hug*)
(*hug*) I know how you feel. But fuck fate. I know you haven't exactly been given the easiest life, but there's nothing you can do about that now. Just try and make the most of life.
(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) What if I can't? I need to call my doctor about SRS, insurance probably won't cover it. I need to change my name and gender on my license, sign up for disability. All while struggling with bipolar depression, gender dysphoria, agoraphobia, and social phobia that prevents me from going outside to find work I want to be happy but why does the road to something so simple have to be so complicated?
It's amazing to realize how much the EC community has helped everybody else and me. --------- I had this dream last night where my mom had to answer a question and it was like: "If your child came out to you, would it be tough on you?" and her answer was "I'd prefer a lesbian daughter rather then a gay son." Having this dream was quite interesting to say the least. All of my dreams now (that I can remember) are about coming out or revealing her thoughts on homosexuals.
You can. (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) The road to happiness is complicated because of a large number of unfortunate coincidences and bad politics.
I don't think I'm a man... Think I was just a woman all along. I'm sorry for deluding y'all. And myself.
I just don't feel like I'm actually a man. I tried to think of myself as one and have been for the pas four months but it just doesn't feel like me... I feel like I've been a woman all along. And I feel so goddamned stupid for not seeing it sooner. I just don't know who I am anymore. I'm lost...
Yeah. I feel pretty lost too. In other news, I'm listening to a thunderstorm through my earphones, and its incredibly calming.
You mean like an audio or video of one, or there's a literal storm outside and you just happen to have your earphones in?
It's all part of the process of figuring things out. It isn't easy. All that matters is that you have gotten to know your inner feelings better.