What Are You Thinking?

Modern medicine is a wonderful thing. I can finally breathe...

 

Holy *bleep* *bleep* *bleep*!!! That was THE most intense scene of TV or film I've ever witnessed. It's been ten minutes, and my heart is still coming down from racing. Breaking Bad is one of the best things I've ever watched.

 

(!) :eusa_danc

 

I'm am literally so tired I'm about to cry...

Life is still annoying, and will continue to be till the end of this month. I'm just working on getting through it.

And this may be my last post tonight because I need to finish studying and go to sleep early tonight....

 

Chocolate. I need lots of chocolate right now.

Actually, no. No, I don't. I want it, but I don't need it. Chocolate does stuff to you.

 

What am I doing with my life??

I'm watching Anderson Cooper RidiculList videos. I forgot me how happy these videos make me.

 

Haha yeah, I love the one where he makes fun of that guy's name on the airplane. Then he laughs... Anderson's laugh is infectious xD

 

That one is great! Have you seen the Dingus day one where he starts laughing because of "pussy willow"??

 

Procrastinating 3 english projects simultaneously, 1 for german, 1 for us politics and 2 for holocaust class. This is all I can think of right off the top of my head right now too, I'm sure there's even more I'm still forgetting...

and the first semester ends next week =D

 

So yesterday I had a total breakdown due to various things.....and for some reason it just felt amazing. I cried in my car for a good 5-10 minutes, screamed like a maniac, and then it all sort of hit me and I was totally calm. Very weird feeling.

I'm starting to realize that I'm playing it safe again. I'm doing what I know I can do, I am doing just enough, and I'm staying in my safezone.

I think its time for another "fuck you, world" phase at least for a little while. I have to stop taking life so seriously! Damn!

Here is to the rest of 2013 being awesome

 

I don't wanna get out of bed |:

 

Procrastinating I should stop. =_=

 

Well, my public library is going to be closed from February 4th to April 16th due to renovations...if they're going to be closed that long, that library better look brand-spanking-new when it opens up again. I'm like, 8th in line on the reservation list for a book I wanted to read, and I know for a fact that I won't have it by February. Kinda makes me slightly pissed. :dry:

 

I should be studying right now. But it's in History and it's not visually attractive to read :/

 

Hear, hear!

 

Why did my date just cancel?

 

I should be doing homework but there are like a gazillion things more interesting.

 

I hate going to tropical countries:
1. In tropical countries you either wear singlets, t shirts or if you're going to the beach topless, and being physically unattractive and self-conscious as I am it becomes a torturous experience
2. You get freaking roasted in the sun and get sunburned
3. So much hot guys in swimwear. But they are all either married or have some girl hanging off them, plus I probably wouldn't have the guts to talk to them anyway.
I am looking toward to going back to my cold, wet city.

 

As if I wasn't busy enough this semester, I just picked up another half credit hour during my degree audit with my adviser. I'm up to 21.5 credit hours now. But the good news it that I'll graduate on time. This semester is going to be so crazy though, literally, my busiest one yet. My Monday's especially. On Mondays I'm interning 8:00-12:00 at the probation office. I have class 1:00-1:50, and then I have a bit of a break, then my senior seminar 6:00-8:45, and then now I have to volunteer at the Criminal Justice club from 9:15 to 10:30, that's the half credit I picked up today, volunteering at the CJ club. Shit is going to be so intense..and that's just the start of my week. >.>

Like, I am just so exhausted. My winter break wore me down more than it rejuvenated me. And now I'm feeling legitimately stressed out because of this interview tomorrow. I just really, really, REALLY, want to do well. Not just for my sake though, but I feel a lot of pressure to perform well since all of the officers vouched for me on the phone yesterday. I almost wish I wasn't there for it now.