What Made You First Realize You Were Gay(LGBT)?

I never officially realized I was gay. I always knew I liked boys. Being the naïve child that I was, I didn't know two boys (or girls) could be together. So as far back as I can remember I though that if I wanted to be with a boy, I'd have to become a girl - a thought that didn't stop me in the slightest. So even at age 4 or 5 I was convinced I'd grow up, become a girl, and fall in love with a boy.

Around age 10 or 11 I think was when I found out two people of the same sex can be together. I just knew that that was for me. Since then I've pretty much identified as gay, although I did shy away from actually usin the term "gay" to describe myself until a few years ago.

 

Basically, sadly to say, running away from state to state thinking somewhere along the line I'd stop being attracted to guys since I'm more attracted to girls. Needless to say, it didn't go away. But classic celebrity crushes including guys and the high school quarterback. Usually "straight" guys don't think the qb is cute lol.

 

2 years ago or so I just started liking girls. I never really knew I was gay till last week or so. Before then I went back and forth between bisexual and gay, then settled on bisexual because I thought it would be "easier". But I realized my attraction to guys wasn't the same as girls, so I figured out I was gay.

 

i think i've always known...however i never had the courage to stop lying about it until recently ^^

 

Well about 2-3 years ago I had this bi (female) friend who I was always flirting with and somewhere along the way I started to realise I was actually being slightly serious about it so I tried to talk about me maybe being bi with my mum but she hates bisexuality (she's not homophobic she just doesn't believe bi's exist) and that pushed me even further back into the closet but I didn't really think about it much or consider myself bi untill a bit more recently when I started wanting to get closer (physically and mentally) to one of my other (female) friends who is also bi but has only come out to me and who is going out with another guy who she told me she probably wasn't gonna be with much longer and whilst it's all confusing it's great cos I've come out to all my friends now but yeah...not sure when you'd count me realising but there you go XD

 

When I had my first dream of kissing a girl. She was rather pretty and I wish I had the dream again.

 

In 7th grade I started to crush on some of my female friends and teachers.

 

I never liked boys as a kid, and some time in middle school I became very interested in this one girl. At the time I was confused and just thought I really wanted to be friends with her, but then I realized I wanted more.

 

I always felt different and never understood why, but the moment that i remember most was when i was 12, and this kid and i were insulting eachother, and he said "Well at least i'm not gay like you" And i thought "yes i am" right out of the blue. then the teacher walked in so we had to stop talking.
But that thought i had bothered me all that day so i didn't get much work done.

 

I started questioning when I had this super hot Canadian student teacher earlier in school. I further questioned when I was trying to figure out why breasts were so great. I finally realized when I had an imaginary scenario in the future, only for some reason it was with a guy, and I suddenly thought "wow, that just seems right".

 

I was drunk with a bunch of my friends at a bar, one of my girlfriends started touching my thigh, we ran into a bathroom stall in the basement of the bar, blah blah blah, nothing interesting happened. I wasn't into it because I was drunk and not attracted to her at all even thought she was attracted to me, so it was quickly over and we both left and wandered back to our table separately. My best friend and I ditched her and the others to go to our usual haunt--a gay bar. Yeah, at the time I still thought I was straight... but that night, sitting in the gay bar after what happened in the other bar, my mind finally snapped. I realized that I was gay. That happened a few months ago, but before that, I was truly and deeply in denial, and that night it finally clicked. I wasn't into sex with that girl at all, but I wanted to do it again with other girls, and I couldn't lie to myself about it anymore. I finally owned up to the fact that I'd never wanted to have sex or even a relationship with a guy--I'd thought of it in a really abstract way because I was expected to be straight by, um, everyone, but I'd never really wanted it. So.

 

I had always wondered, and then at a party drunk i hooked up with a guy a boom fireworks!! iv even had 2 serious relationships with girls and i never felt kissing or sex was a big deal

 

To me, the idea of two guys being together wasn't something that I was "okay with," but rather, something that I ws actually attracted to. The realization that I actually liked (rather than just tolerated) the idea of two men together got me questioning my orientation.

Then, after a lot of thought, I realised that I liked guys, but started questioning whether or not I liked girls. Then more thoughts, questioning my entire personality, and I eventually came to realize a lot of different things about myself.

 

I realised I was trans when I realised such things as girls and boys existed.

 

I remember when some family friends were over to go on a hike with my family, when we Passed this REALLY hot guy, in my mind i said " that guy is really hot" and I realized that I had never thought that way about girls.

 

I always feel different from other boys, but the first time i truly felt that i was gay was when i was doing an assignment on Henry VIII in 6th Grade. I read that he was a very handsome man in his youth, and he was described by a book as a "hunk". Curious, i searched "hunk" on the internet and what i found i liked very much...probably too much. That was the first time i truly felt i had an attraction to men.

However, i didn't link this attraction to being gay until 4 years later, when i'm 16 and started having my first crush.

 

Good question! I always have trouble answering it but for some reason I feel the need to try
I don't think I ever really "knew" and I guess I still don't. I never had one moment where I said, "Hallelujah! I'm gay!" I've just never been attracted to girls. My best friends have always been girls, I've always gotten along with girls better than boys, and I've always found myself eyeing up boys as opposed to girls. It's so difficult, the whole situation!

 

A couple things.

I didn't have much access to porn, but when I did, it was always straight porn. Gay porn was something you got in shady stores in the bad part of town. But when I got porn, I quickly found I wasn't crazy about just women. I liked it better when there was a woman and a man getting it on. I told myself it was because I could "project myself" into the place of the guy, but in retrospect, no.

This song made the top ten when I was 14. And back then, MTV played nothing but music videos, so this thing came on maybe once every three hours.

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You can see the "guy student" is wearing something like a sheath/loincloth, that leaves most of his ass uncovered. And I was drawn to that ass like a moth to a flame. I literally would stare at it every time it was on the screen (which wasn't all that often). In retrospect, that was probably the biggest sign.

And I still love the song.

Lex

 

A few days after my 14th birthday was the Royal Wedding (Will and Kate). Watching it live (in order to laugh at the hats), it was Pippa Middleton who made me realise I liked girls.