What are you thinking?

I think my biggest goal for right now is to be able to be comfortable when I am lonely. If I can do this. I can defeat all, live anywhere, and do anything. Until then I will feel stuck wherever I am. Because waiting for someone to change that and not getting better at being lonely...(I am not often, but sometimes. when i am it drives me nuts) is not worth it

 

Being up at 3:30am is just shit. I don't know how I'll make it through work on this little sleep.

 

I had my hair cut today. I looks like utter bullcrap. I love it.

 

Never in my life have I ever had this much pain. This sodium naproxen (Aleve) helps a lot, but earlier I was unable to properly move. Stupid sciatica...

 

that was one long post

 

Oh my old friend early morning Saturday rehearsals... I can't say I've missed you...

 

I gotta get up in two hours to go to a party that will last ALL DAY, that I don't even wanna go to, and I haven't slept any bit. Today's gonna be a good day to own a bottle of aspirn(headaches from no sleep!), a new pair of sunglasses(for those tired eyes!), and know how to fake smile(I already feel like crap).

 

I feel soo much better today!

 

Why does my hear feel so .... actually if feels nothing at all?

 

I think I have another broken rib..... I wonder how I did it this time...

 

I'm so bored and I have nobody to hang out with. shoot me.

 

Despite the promo about it being one of the scarier movies of all time, I have decided to watch "The Fourth Kind" in the dark, alone. I'll likely regret this.

 

Mmm. Potatoes au gratin. When are you going to be ready?

 

so today i gave somebody £1000 in notes lined up in a black briefcase.

this completed one of my lifetime ambitions

 

Hmmm...I wonder where this is headed. No idea what she wants to talk about.

 

I think I'm gonna give up drinking drinks with sugar in them. (Except for the occasional alcoholic beverage on special occasions, ahem.) I quit sodas yonks ago, but I'm thinking drinking unsweetened tea may further along my weight loss goals!

... I should also probably learn to like vegetables as snacks. >:[ Beyond baby carrots dipped in ranch, though, I can't think of a snacky vegetable I like. (Anything involving celery can crawl in a hole and die, imo.)

Also: Florence and the Machine <3 <3 <3

 

Hahaha....Here's the conversation:

Her: So....ummm...I'm just gonna ask this. Do you have a girlfriend?
Me: No...
Her: Oh. Ok. I don't want to be weird, i just didn't want to get you in trouble for talking to another girl.
Me: Well...acutally, I'm gay.
Her: OH! Well, now I feel like an idiot.

 

I feel so... good today.

That happened to me. In person. During History class. Quite an experince.

 

OMGOMGOMG I'm so excited!! i just sold my old surfboard, and the guy bought it for the full amount i asked for which i definitely was not expecting! now i have more than enough money to get my new custom board (!!)(!!) :icon_mrgr :icon_mrgr :eusa_danc :eusa_danc :eusa_danc(!)(!)(!)