@jjusa With every post of yours, it seems like you are growing in your ability to recognize more and more what makes you tick. So, by all means, don't worry if it seems like you are leaning on this forum too much. Most of us don't have the skills and knowledge that @Chip has. But, we are here to ask questions and relate our own life stories in the hope it triggers some thinking on your part! It seems you are capable of standing up for yourself some on this forum. So, you can carry this out into the real world. You are going to need to take a stand against other's expectations of you because it is not working for you when you don't.