Discussion in 'Chit Chat' started by Mirko, Feb 28, 2017.
Thinking about family relationships.
How necessary two toilets are when one breaks. I never thought I’d line a bucket with a plastic bag and put it in the toilet bowl but with two people with severe stomach issues some things are needed. Also the worst time for a toilet to break is Friday night.
Tried to reach out to friends for emotional support yesterday and I got ignored or just got "Damn that sucks". I feel so alone, I just want them to support and comfort me. It's not like I reach out all that often.
I’m a day late on the latest White Lotus episode, and I can’t avoid spoilers, shoooot. These headlines are out of control.
So, have I been invited on a date or are we just hanging out? What am I going to wear? Uh????? I shouldn't over think this. We're probably just hanging out casually but I'm not sure. Oh dear.
So if my dentist says my teeth aren’t hurting because they need fillings how am I supposed to make the pain stop.
Ooof i hope your teeth gets better
I haven't been on EC in 4 years... I missed it, but it's weird to be back. Also, I'm procrastinating on my paper...
Ugh been on my feet all day taking down Christmas decorations. Way more fun to put up then take down.
I had been worried about you
Sometimes, I can be socially clumsy and mess things up and end up feeling terrible and embarrased. Just a random thought.
Shower thought: I wonder how many LGBT books my library had when I was growing up. Obviously less than now, but I don't think the thought had ever even occurred to me as a possibility.
Happy New Year, all!
Here's hoping 2023 treats everyone well.
Ugh, I don't want to go back to work! How am I going to keep my spirits up? I'm always exhausted after work, and I mean to study for my driving theory, but then guess what - I fall asleep. Every time. Ugh. I need a way to keep my energy steady, so I can actually achieve what I want to achieve. Caffeine doesn't work so that's a no go. Hmm.
I think my mother isn’t thinking she got me a Fitbit because she has one and loves it. I don’t know how much use it will be given I have a degenerative muscle condition and live a mostly sedentary lifestyle. It’s a birthday present and I said yes to the first thing she suggested because she told me she felt bad she had nothing for my birthday and I felt bad she felt bad.
Sometimes I don’t know if I want a career.
Right now I'm thinking about a myriad of things; how to continue my current chapter of my ongoing fanfiction, beginning my Pokemon Legends fanfiction, how am I going to move my stuff from one state to another, and how I'm eventually going to tell my friends and family that I'm moving.
I have a lot on my mind right now and I'm trying to take this time to try and figure things out and get my ducks in a row....or at least to make some skeleton of a plan. I'm thinking about how I'll miss everyone but I know me leaving my state is the best way for me to start over with my mental health. I'll probably get established with a new therapist in the state I'm moving to and I'm gonna try to heal so I don't have to worry about these demons clawing at my proverbial front door anymore. that's a bit about what I'm thinking about.
The thought of moving out is super exciting - the independence, decorating how I want, and the only person to screw up my cleaning is me.
It's been long overdue, and feel like it's something I need to do to move onto the next chapter. But damn, the loneliness factor is something that's finally settling in. Or that I'd have to do 100% of everything. I knew those would be issues, but now I'm starting to worrying about the magnitude they will be.
Wish I could just forget some things ever happened
This is good. Creativity is the best route to self-realization and self-healing.