So, I told myself that I'd tell my parents today. Now that the day has actually come, I'm scared to death again. It feels like my whole life is being dominated by this whole situation, and I know that I'm only delaying something I'll inevitably have to face at some point. It doesn't make things any easier though. I've always got on really well with my parents and the thought of seeing any disappointment or horror or whatever on their faces just makes me feel down. I decided last night I was going to tell them and chickened out, vowing to do it today, which I'm proceeding to chicken out of again. I'm starting to re-evaluate how I'm going to go about it. Originally I was going to do it by letter, then I decided to do it face to face, to both of them. I'm finding this incredibly hard to do. So I've thought about telling my mum alone first (who I think will be more understanding), and then that'll practically force me into the horrendous act of telling my dad. But I wanted to tell them both at the same time so as not to make them think I was more comfortable with one or the other etc. I don't know what to do I'm starting to think about writing a letter again, because I'm hopeless at speaking, I've always been better at expressing myself through the written word, but I don't know if this will make them feel as if I can't speak to them or something.......... As for everyone else, I feel entirely comfortable about others knowing about my sexuality now, I feel like blowing up my closet for good I want all my other friends to know within the next week or so. It's just the whole telling my parents that's bothering me. God I just need the strength to do it. And I just needed to put all this down in writing to get it off my chest.