I noticed something that changed suddenly but never paid much attention. I used to have a lot of moments when i would see a handsome man and would feel anxious. But now my friends call a lot of men handsome and for some reason this moments decreased a lot, i would see a handsome guy and would say, hes handsome and feel nothing. Another thing is, im strating to think that somehow my innability to feel attraction for woman comes from the fact that i cant even masturbate to them effecticely and feel a lot of joy. The fact that i feel a weird feeling in my stomach when i see a womans vagina just confused me for a while, because only if i stimulated myself i would be able to feel arousal, and it was hard sometimes, only lookig was very hard to feel arousal, only this weird bad feeling. But when i used to see a transwoman naked i would get a hard on almost instantly, for her erect penis. I know it all comes to my huge use of porn, and that it affected me to the point that i can almost only masturbate to a transwoman and her penis. Its the only thing that gives me real arousal at this moment. So i thought that this could be the reason why i cant have real connections to woman anymore. I noticed that there was 1 woman that i could fantasize rn, and i dont feel this bad feeling when i think about her naked or going down on her. I still talked to this girl tho. So i think that this "fetish" which i feel really bad for having (transwoman) is making me lose interest on other things (vagina). I dont know if this makes sense, but i was just thinking about it.