Sorry for the long rant, but this is a really serious situation. I'm 23 and I told my family I was gay a few weeks ago and I expected their reaction to be bad as I've always known they're homophobic, but I never expected it to be this bad. My parents and sisters all said I was selfish for being willing to put them through this misery and when I said I wanted to move out, they said that I didn't appreciate anything they had done for me in the past and that I had no respect for them. I tried telling them I appreciate everything they've done, but I need to have a future and it was never going to be with a girl, but they wouldn't listen and said that I would lose them if I chose to act on it. When I said I needed to move out, they threatened to take me to Lebanon (which is very conservative) against my will. When I said I wasn't going, my dad said he was going to confine me to my home and he actually grabbed my phone to call my job and tell them that I was quitting so that he could keep a constant eye on me, saying he would never let me out of his sight. He then said that I would never be allowed to see my supportive friends and he threatened to take my phone and laptop away from me so I would never be able to communicate with them. My family is under the impression that the few gay people in my job influenced me to come out and be proud so I'm forbidden from seeing any of my friends outside of work any more. The only reason I'm allowed to still go to work is because I said that I wouldn't act on being gay and two weeks ago my dad said that I would have to try being straight (as in get with girls) until I liked one of them because he thinks I just haven't found the right one. I had to agree to this as well because I was worried if I didn't, he wouldn't let me leave the house like he almost did before. I've told my co-workers my situation and they're suggesting that I move out. I'm 23 and can easily afford to rent a place, but if I do this I know I will lose my entire family and they will be so hurt. My mum had a panic attack when I told her I couldn't change and my dad started shaking. I don't want to hurt them, but I can't stay like this because it's making me so miserable. I've told them I've often thought of killing myself and my dad keeps saying if I kill myself he'll kill himself. I've also told them I'm depressed but they all think I'm being selfish and ungrateful for what they've done in the past for me and that if I act on being gay I would be forever miserable and get diseases. The only way I'd be able to move out is if I had police escort me out safely but that would completely damage my relationship with my family who already have a hard time trusting me since I came out. My dad always says things like why would you wan to be in the minority when you can be normal and that gay people are brainwashed into believing its okay. before comparing them to suicide bombers who are also brainwashed into dying for what they believe is right. My family's also under the impression that all I want to do is have sex with people, but when I tell them I want a romantic relationship, they keep saying I can have that with a girl if I don't care about sex. They think I can still have romantic feelings for girls even if I'm not physically attracted to them. My family and myself barely talk any more and when we do it's very forced, but they think that I'm just distracting myself from acting on being gay so they accept that. I'm so scared for my life and I dread coming home every day. I also worry that if I move out, they will hunt me down and never leave me alone and I'm also scared what they might do to any partner I have. They've made threats like if they ever see me with a guy they will kill him and they say they're willing to commit murder because they care about me so much and want me to follow the right path. I think that might just be threats but I'm still scared. I'm so confused as to what I should do. I don't want to lose them but I'm hating my life at the moment. I have no freedom at all outside of work. Should I move out and completely lose my family? I'm also worried it might destroy my family forever and they'll spend the rest of their lives miserable. Thanks in advance for any advice.