I'm 21, a female and I think I first started questioning my sexuality at 14. I was often imagining myself in a romantic/sexual relationship with a woman. To be honest, I've had these thoughts way earlier, back when I didn't know that homosexuality existed. I recall being about 8 and thinking "If women are prettier than men, why are they supposed to be with men? Why can't they be with other women?". At the age of 14 or 15 I developed a crush on a female teacher. Then for a few years, due to a homophobic environment and becoming more religious, I decided that I must be straight because homosexuality is sinful. So I repressed my sexual and romantic thoughts about women. Even after I stopped being strictly religious, I still thought that I was straight. But deep inside I was questioning. It felt clear to me that I might not be straight when I realized I was sexually attracted to a female singer. This happened when I was 20. Around that time, I also had a crush on another female singer. It was both romantic and sexual, I fantasized a lot about being with her and marrying her. Then one day I woke up after dreaming about having sex with a woman, and after waking up, I continued this fantasy in my head. I felt that I really wanted to have sex with a woman, and I had wanted it all along, but repressed it due to religion. Then I talked it out with my brother, and after some time, I decided that I'm bisexual. At that moment I was sure of it. I felt huge euphoria due to finally discovering my identity. Then I joined a local LGBT+ group on Facebook. There I met an AFAB femme-presenting non-binary person I currently have a crush on. I've never been in a relationship, but most of my crushes throughout my life have been on men. However I was more focused on personality than physical appearance. I find women more attractive, the female body is much more attractive to me than the male body. I'm also generally more attracted to femininity, so I like feminine men, as well. I have experienced sexual fantasies towards both men and women throughout my life, but now they're almost exclusively about women. However, I find people of different genders sexually attractive. I was euphoric after discovering my identity, but then doubts came in: what if I'm actually straight and just made all this up? I don't want to be straight because that would mean I can't be in a relationship with a woman, and I would like to. In fact, I would choose to date a woman over dating a man, because I just find women more attractive. Currently I'm feeling quite bad because I thought I had discovered myself, and now I'm lost again. I only came out as bi to my brother, therapist and people on the Facebook group, but I feel like I should have waited longer, I should have spent more time figuring out my sexuality before coming out.