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Ocd doesnt let me even enjoy a night with friends

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by Sadness, Sep 18, 2021.

  1. Chip

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    Yes, that's exactly it. And a lot of folks (including, sadly, some therapists) take the approach of "It's in the past, no use rehashing." Unfortunately, that isn't how our neurobiology works.
     
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    I think if we search our past we discover a lot of things about ourselves, fears, traumas, etc.

    I will try this approach with him next time. And i will do like you said, or at least try, to not come here with questions like masturbation to men and all of this. Because i dont think anyone here would make foul of me, why is the point of doing that anyway, so even if i came here saying that masturbating to men gave me arousal feeling and even erection for a moment and you still crave that is ocd, then theres nothing more to it that could be deeper than this i think. I will try to come out with questions about ocd but not related to this. No matter how many times i test, or i come here saying i felt arousal feeling and erection sometimes and you guys still dont go back saying "hm, now theres more to it than just ocd, you are probably gay/bi too" it only makes me believe its ocd.
     
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    Man its so funny, just when i said that i wont be posting about tests, masturbation and men, i went through something that i never went lol. I just started fantasizing doing a blowjob, i got hard and i was literally hard, i even tried masturbate to gay hentai and i was going to ejaculate, but i stopped bc i was scared, but i did fantasize about doing a blowjob to a transwoman and was very aroused again..

    I will not think about why this is happeming, i actually was got aroused and hard har thinking about doing a bj to a guy, again, everyone here says its still ocd and im not gay. Dont know whats going on recently but i dont want to think about that anymore!!
     
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    Should i addres this to him in my next appointment? How suddenly whenever i test about doing a blowjov to a guy im getting trully hard? Or should i let this away?
     
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    It's your OCD. It's not going to do much meaningful to do anything to address it. I'd put your energy toward looking at the root cause... the trauma.
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    Yeah your right, it will probably go to the same route. I actually tried after again and i think i felt less than the first time but i will quit thinking about this. I know exactly where it will lead me tbh. Tomorrow i will probably try again and feel almost nothing, will be okay, than i will try a lot of times after so i can prove that im not feeling anything. Until to the point where i will stop doing it and be okay for a while or until i give up. So i dont need to do this again if i know whats happening so i stopping here.

    I will focus solely in my trauma now. And trying to discover what my trauma is, why is happening, ans how to cope with it.