I'm typically the sole parent with the kids. Though married we've haven't spoken much if at all in years, even about them. He is a very hands off father. But kids wanted him to come along today... On a 4 hour long drive... In the midst of our silence and the kids talking quietly in the back I nearly, non chalantley said 'So, I'm gay' Nearly lol!! If it weren't for the kids I am at the point I would've. But it's more than just their presence it's how their lives will probably change from a divorce and all that... I just needed to tell someone!!!I almost did it!!!
If you don't mind me asking, how old are your children? It sounds like there is a part of you that is getting ready to start making some changes in your life.
I I'm so ready to make changes, but I feel they are at a very influential age. My oldest is 12, the twins are 11 and youngest is 8. My youngest has significant special needs and a divorce would be exceptionally difficult due to his circumstances. He will be dependent on me for the rest of my life
I can see the predicament you are in and it's certainly not an easy situation. I haven't read all of your posts, but I hope you have access to some supports (aside from EC) as an outlet - or at least somebody else to talk to that you trust. As time passes, it's possible that some pieces will fall into place on their own. (*hug*)
I have a couple of people I talk to outside EC. The main reason I came here was for the support which has been wonderful. Only one of my friends is local because of my lifestyle here. If I reach out to other groups or whatever then there will be a lot of questions for me to answer from everyone if they find out. I do pray for that! I'm sure everything will fall into place at the right time. Just need more patience!! Something I often run short on lol
Glad to know you have a person you can speak with as well. I'm also glad that you are part of EC and are finding the support helpful. It's good to have a variety of supports when possible. I can imagine that patience can run thin at times. It's a lot to carry while also trying to make sure your family's needs are met. I'm sure you will get through it all.