I am a women. I just use the label bisexual but I don't know I do lean more towards women but have had feelings for men. I've known I've been attracted to other females for a long while and have had feelings for a few girls. ive never dated one though. never had a boyfriend either. I can be attracted to men physically but I don't ever feel any sort of connection when I sleep with them. ive never enjoyed it. only did it because I needed to try again and again because I was confused, which in turn, only confused me more. however I have never been with a girl in any way but do fantasize about it often, rarely ever fantasize about men. I am currently talking to a girl, which I have done before but never something as serious as this. and I don't know, I just don't feel that type of connection and feelings I normally would feel when im highly attracted to someone. I am attracted to her and she's amazing, but idk I don't feel myself wanting to be in anything long term with her. and I especially don't want to hurt her. its extremely confusing because its my first time being with a girl in this way and im not sure if its just her specifically im not into, or what because I do find women sexually attractive and have had deep feelings for them before. has anyone ever had an experience like this their first time with the same gender? please I need advice.
