I was more or less found out really the last time. He accepts other trans people but he did not accept me. He said I didn't show the signs when I was little or anything- he's right, I was in denial and bottled all of my emotions up from a very young age due to thinking I should and trauma. It was not until I read other trans people's stories and found one that mentioned repressed dysphoria that I began to realize that's what I was doing. Every time I try to lower my voice while singing or do something subtly more masculine he asks me why and gets annoyed still. He's also a bit of a nark and I had to go back in the closet due to the circumstances I'm in. And yet I feel the urge to tell him about it and having a girlfriend. I know it's probably a bad idea but I still want to- help me snap out of it please.