Well, here I am again. It's been a while... Some of you might remember me...perhaps. Anyway, I'll try to make my story is short as possible (even though I know I won't be able to do that). Oh, before I start, just a little disclaimer: I'm not, in any way whatsoever, justifying what I did. I made a huge mistake. I'm the wrong side, he's the victim. What I'm truly looking for here is help. Help to be a better person. I'm sick and tired of hurting others. It's a burden, really. I'm not one of those toxic people who go hurting others, acting as they please, with no concern of other's feelings. (even though he now believes I am just that). I know I'm not like that. But I'm so addicted to porn and seeing beautiful guys online that it undermines any relationship I get into. It happened once and now it happened again. I'll try to break this story into smaller posts, so I'll keep writing below.