I've gone to gender therapy for years now and nothing seems to be enough. If I could afford it I'd see a better gender therapist but all the really good ones are so expensive. :/. I don't know why I get such sexual and emotional pleasure from crossdressing but I desperately wish it would stop. I was hoping that maybe if I explore my fantasies that they would go away. But the only woman I was into who was interested in sleeping with me while crossdressed had an STI, and I was reluctant to pursue her. She now has wanted nothing to do with me, making me even more depressed. I wish I can undo this but I can't. What can I do????