I used to repress it or avoid it entirely so yes, it's partially a matter of admitting it to myself, but it's also allowing myself to think about it and work through it. I haven't had a real female friend for many years because I was afraid of getting too close; in the past I would channel any feelings into an obsession with something else to avoid facing any feelings that came up. Even with my recent crush I did the same thing at first, I channeled it into an obsession with a mutual activity until I couldn't deny what was happening because I almost lost the friendship. That's when I finally admitted to myself that I had strong feelings for her and just allowed myself to feel those feelings so I could work through them. There's nothing wrong with not wanting a relationship, not everyone enjoys sharing their life with another person. Being in a relationship doesn't necessarily mean it has to be forever, though. I spent way too much time worrying about finding "the one" when I was younger to enjoy the freedom of being young and single so I'd say sometimes the best thing is just to take things as they come and enjoy the moment.