HI everyone. Lately its been a nice week and i feel really happy actually. But theres one thing that pops up in my mind sometimes. can porn affects my compulsions? Like most of the times when i masturbate i end testing a little bit, which bothers me ofc, but i really want to win this compulsion, but its just so natural lol, i start seeing porn, a pretty girl and all, but suddenly i start to think that im aroused by the penis, its very intrusive since just pops up in my head, and then without noticing i start to test again, and then all that stuff happens, anxiety appears, i start to close my eyes and make it stop, and slowly i start to go soft, then i go back to porn normally, what bothers me is: probably bc im masturbating and already aroused, this tests are not a instant turn off, i dont go soft quick, it takes a little time for me to start getting soft, and for some reason after i test i can masturbate much easier and sometimes pleasured than if i didnt test myself, its not like i get aroused by my thoughts or tests, as i said above i dont, but when i switch back from my test to girls again, im much more horny and can finish quickier. So is it possible that porn makes my ocd worse? I really want to enjoy my masturbations again. I think im mixing getting aroused by the male body, and being aroused by the role of the penis in porn, bc ngl, the penis has a big role in porn, so maybe im mixing things.
