I'm pretty sure I just lost the only person who was preventing my suicide, and I am trying desperately now to cling on to anything that will give me any reason to live. Everybody I care about gets blocked off from me somehow and it's making me feel more and mor unwilling to live. I have a mom I never see, a therapist I never see, and 2 friends who have been taken away because of sad things that I cannot control. I feel alone. I know I have nothing left to live for, so how can I keep living?