Hi there ! I’m almost 22 years old,born reside in the Middle East but my parents are originally from Africa. I am non-regilious and my departure from religion coincided with my acceptance and embracment of the reality that I am gay. There is no questioning arc to my story of discovering that I am gay. I have always been what traditionally may be called girly in terms of interests and behavior as well but that quickly got suppressed and I’ve learned to behave “normally”. (However, at a young age I never explicitly crushed or felt an attraction toward any boy ) Past puberty I am not the most manly guy in terms of appearance and the moment I can most vividly remember elstablishing that I am gay is how I was enchanted and excuse me (got a ranging boner) to a professional male ballet dancer I watched on TV. I think I should offer homage to No.6 (novels that also have an anime) that really solidified my acceptance of my own gayness and apprenting how sublime a gay realtionship can be. I also thank the countless of activists in the west (particularly the USA) (you may have no idea how much suffering you saved gay souls from experiencing outside your nations). I also thank the stories of countless gay men that served as lesson for the consequences of me failing to accept myself. For now, I have no intentions of coming out; Not physically safe and potentially too distressing to my parents especially my mom.I don’t want to add to her distress that’s already present. I have come to terms with the possibility of my gayness being a secert I depart the world with. There is an odd sense of serenity with this acceptance. I love reading, science, history, philosophy, anime and many more. I hope something great comes off me being a member and joining EC —be it memories or friendships. Cheers !!