Hello. My name is Caden. I'm 19 years of age and I am expecting my first T blocker and/or Hormone day on 1/6/22. I came here because of confusion over my Gender identity. Since I was a child I wanted to be a girl but it never became discomfort with the masculine parts up until I was 14 or 15 years old. The thing is I feel confused. I don't understand. I tell myself " I am a woman. " The thing is I like that, but I feel confusion over it. Is this gender dysphoria? I can provide more examples. My testicles provide me anxiety sometimes. I shave my beard nearly daily. Without makeup my face doesn't always provide comfort. When I tell myself I'm a man I feel sick sometimes. Like gagging. So I'm just wondering, why do I not understand this and why even though I tell myself what I like, I still feel confusion over it?