I posed this question already to a friend on EC, but I’d be interested to hear some thoughts in general. My strategy for denial and repression of gender identity has been a life of overcompensation. I’ve avoided outward feminine expression to such a degree that I get paralyzed trying to do things that are typically considered gender neutral because my own personal motivations are feminine. For example, no one would bat an eye if I groomed my body hair, cis het men do that all the time. But because I know that the idea is exciting for me because i perceive it as feminizing, I lock up. That’s the bad news. The good news is I have a helper. My wife is on board to explore with me. I know I shouldn’t need permission to express myself, but that doesn’t change the fact that I’m paralyzed without it. So I’ve got permission, and I can start. In fact, she wants to join me and explore an interest in androgynous/masculine gender expression that I had no idea she had. Im really excited about doing this together, and that the last barrier to exploring is lifted. So… now what? I didn’t have the experience of experimenting on my own, I just tamped down the desire to. Can anyone recommend things to try first? So far, every barrier Ive broken has made the next barrier easier to break, so I have a feeling that just getting started is what I need to find my courage. Any suggestions?