Acceptance of Your Sexuality Is Freedom!

I need to remind myself how incredibly happy, energized and free I feel when I accept that I am gay.

I realized it's really about freedom!
Freedom from thoughts literally depressing yourself and preventing you from living your life.
Freedom to pursue love, romance, sensuality, sex!

I am a homosexual. There is no other way for me to experience romantic and physical sexual love with anyone but a man. Of course it will be a special man for me, but it will be a man. If I deny this or don't accept it, I am cutting myself off from the chance for love.

Right now, I feel incredibly happy about being gay, knowing it, and accepting it. I am ready to share my capacity for love and intimacy with another!

 

Thanks!
Right now I feel so wonderful! How could I ever want to reject the feeling and state of mind that comes with acceptance? How could I even think about taking away this gift I gave to myself!?

I have a strange feeling tonight that I really reached a new stage of acceptance, no matter what self destructive thing I might try to do, nothing can stop me from coming out to myself.

I also had a strange feeling of revulsion and anger about trying to like women sexually, it's hard to explain but I feel so happy just rejecting that idea that I could be sexually attracted to them.

 

I have progressed this way too. It became mentally and physically exhausting to pretend I like women.

Yes, beautifully put! this is exactly how I feel.

 

I was just thinking about this.. I LOVE being gay! I know I still have a long way to go, but I am long, long past the point of denial or wanting to 'fix it'. It's been an internal battle for a long time, but the denial side no longer even denies, and I also know the more real world contact i have with the LGBTQ community, I feel more comfortable and at home, I am 'leaving' my old self.

 

Years ago when I was drunk, I had a hook up, I was liking it, but freaked out before it went to far, but it felt pretty natural, I was just scared.

 

Thanks! I am doing well. Yes I still am happy about being gay! Denial is so draining and tiring, I just couldn't do it anymore. I can imagine myself with a guy and I feel happy, like I have some hope for intimacy- I just focus on that - nothing can compare to that feeling. I tried, and tried and tried, but just don't feel that way about women.

 

Yes, it's funny I used to be 'desperate' for any sign I found a woman attractive, now I really want those thoughts to go away- they just seem like a silly waste of time.

Yes this can be very tiring! Especially when you have acknowledged to yourself you're gay

I was just thinking - if i remained in 'denial' then I would just think that romantic and sexual relations are not really all that great, and you can never be really close to anyone.

I may have some 'grief' about finally giving up the idea that I am straight - but if I acknowledge I am gay then all the sudden physical, romantic and sexual intimacy are much more intense and I have a real desire for them.

 

I now realize my same sex desires are part of a desire for romantic intimacy. When I even begin to imagine what it would be like to find a guy I could love like that - just holding hands or snuggling in bed, I feel so beautiful inside, and I feel so good about being gay.

 

Thanks! I know it's taken a long, long time to just get this far, but yes, looking back I was so terrified about being gay and every day it seems like I am more and more comfortable. There are some down days but they are fewer and fewer.

More importantly, I feel like the change it permanent. I know I have to keep moving forward, but I know I won't go back, there is no denial to hide behind anymore.

 

I am feel totally comfortable with other gay men now - I have called the help line a couple of times and here, I also feel comfortable coming out to some women friends I know. In fact, I feel less comfortable if they don't know I am gay.
It's the rest of the world, but I am beginning to realize I need to to build a new life within the gay community some old friends and family might still be there, but with others we might drift apart. That's ok. I am ready to start living as me, and if it doesn't fit with other people that's ok too.