Hey all. I finally came out last week to myself. I have been thinking back if there was a sign that I was gay. I remember the first time I was with a girl, I slipped my hand down there and was expecting to feel something I was more familiar with. It took a few attempts to finally explore the area. It just felt really odd to me, especially hoping to find something else.
It's funny how, for many of us, but especially those of us who didn't figure it out until later... once we finally begin to accept ourselves, we realize that there were signs, sometimes subtle, sometimes not, that we were oblivious to earlier in life.
One of my weird memories is that I would go to the back of a porn magazine and masturbate to the little advert for gay chat. All those naked women and that’s what I would do!
I had a similar experience. Accepted myself as bi, but discovering - after acceptance - that I may be leaning more gay.
Yes. For me it started with watching bisexual porn because it is still on the straight site which means it’s not gay! Then I got into women using toys on their ass and that’s when I started identifying with the woman.