When I was little we used to touch each other's penises as a game when we were young boys and there was one double anal sex. I was very young about 10-13 years. Later I had relations only with girls and everything was awesome in a romantic and sexual way. But I got addicted to drugs 4 years ago. During addiction, any sex was cool. After meeting transgender We blowjob each other when I was high. And also there was anal sex. The To me it seemed kind of pleasant. But the next day I really regretted it and it seemed disgusting. Now I start to think only about sex with guys but not in a romantic way. What does this mean? Am I gay or just sex addicted?
And yeah. Hi everyone. I wrote wrong here. Now I want sex and I don't care what gender with. I am thinking about sex with a boy because it's much easier to get
Takler.....I am sorry for the difficult time you had with drug addiction. Just as a reminder...Empty Closets is a PG13 website. We have members as young as 13 years old. Talking about sex with children is inappropriate as well as illegal in most countries. We do want to be helpful to you, but please be careful with your comments. .....David
Takler…..I usually catch people when they make their first post in the "Welcome Lounge" but I missed you there, so I'll catch back up to you here! …..Hello and a big LGBTQIA+ welcome to Empty Closets! I can remember the first post that I made on EC. I was desperate for help and I got the help that night that I so needed. I hope that we can help you in the same way that I received help. The most important thing to remember about Empty Closets is that we do care about you! We're very glad that you found us here on EC and hope that we can answer questions, give you support and provide a place to vent (as long as it's not violent! ) when that becomes necessary! This is a safe community of loving, caring and very supportive people and we will do our best to help you blend into the community. *****There are 18 different sub-forums here that you can check out, join in the conversations or start your own thread/conversation. When I first joined Empty Closets I was in need of a lot of support and encouragement and I found it here…EC is a safe place. I hope that you'll find good things here too! Folks here will talk to you and share...you don't have to be afraid of asking questions...we're glad to have you! Empty Closets is all about making connections and giving LGBTQ folks a voice when they otherwise don't have one in their day-to-day lives. Some info on how to navigate EC: When you have made at least 10 posts on various threads you will be able to post messages on a member's Profile Page. Just click on a member's Avatar Picture and then click on "Profile Page" in the dialogue box that pops up. You'll then be on their Profile Page and there will be a box that says: "Write Something”. When you have been on EC for a few weeks and have made at least 50 posts on various forums, you can apply for Full Membership. Only A Full Member can send Private Messages (PM) and then only to other Full Members and share personal contact info. Right now you can only send a PM to a Staff Member as that is always possible. Here is a quote from the Full Membership information forum: *****To be eligible you must be a member of Empty Closets for a minimum of two weeks, and have a minimum of 50 posts. These posts must be across numerous forums (Fun & Games does not contribute to post count), and consistently posted across a minimum of two weeks. You wouldn't be eligible, for example, if you registered, had no activity for two weeks, and then returned to post 50 times on your 14th day of membership. *****Well, as I said, we're very glad you found us! If you have any questions at all, you can send me a Private Message as you can always send a staff member a Private Message. …..David
I'm sorry you're going through a confusing time, but experimenting with different sexual experiences doesn't necessarily determine your sexual orientation. It's normal to be curious about it all, when you're younger. It's also possible that your drug use may have influenced your perception and behavior. It might be helpful to take some time to reflect on your feelings and experiences without the influence of drugs. If you're feeling overwhelmed, consider reaching out to a therapist or counselor who can provide support. They can help you explore your feelings and understand yourself better.
I didn't tell that I had any relationships with children. I was talking about myself. About It all was started when I was 10-13 years old
I'm not overwhelmed. One thing that bothers me is my thoughts about wanting sex with same gender in a role of girl myself. But on the other side something not giving me to do this. Something inside me tells no need. Thats why I dont know what to do. Need do I try this or is this just a sex addiction. And btw I'm not using drugs about 6 months.
Takler.....I am so glad that you are not taking drugs. They always hurt you in the end. You might be still learning more about your sexuality. Some people take a little longer than others to be sure of what is right for them. .....David
I think the issue that raised alarm was when you were talking about your time as a teen. legally speaking, I'm not sure you being a minor would serve a suitable legal defence. Although, it would make semi-logical sense. But to your answer your question on being gay or being sex addicted... the two are completely different and you can be one or the other, or both. They're not mutually inclusive or exclusive. The LGBT has been hypersexualized by the media for decades. Now, the random hookup culture and the.... volume... of partners doesn't help with the stigma. But there's nothing that says that if you're LGBT you have to f*** everything. In the end I think it comes down to you understanding your desires and your intentions. Is it purely just about sex? A way to get your rocks off? Is there some sort of void that is being filled through the sex? As for being gay, I think it comes down to attraction. Only you can answer that question. Imagine yourself at the beach. Are you attracted to the girls, the guys, both, or other? If you do find yourself attracted, is it just for sex? Or is there a genuine attraction? I think, oftentimes, people feel forced to categorize themself. In this age of labels, to be be something that is not easily defined causes all kinds of anxiety. And depending on your upbringing and your history there might be labels that are challenging to the image and the identity you have created for yourself. So being aware of that cognitive dissonance will also help you in deciding.
I do think there is a little bit of a language barrier here and I think that your uncertainty may come from your backround, because the society where you come from isn't accepting. And that's what's not letting you explore your feelings. Could that be correct? I understand that. My country isn't very accepting either. It's quite conservative, despite us letting gay people now marry, what is a big step. There is still lot of gatekeeping and people who are unaccepting. And I wanted to say it's wonderful you are not on drugs anymore.
Some guys look to me really beautiful. I kind of like them. But, if we talk about kissing or taking hands. Its weird to me. Maybe its bc of our society? Maybe I just protesting. Idk. I wanna explore this. I wanna understand. I know it takes some time. But how else I can understand this?
